Hard Times

You know when you get down about something and you get that feeling that your just about to cry your eyes out?  Well, that's me.  Tony has been without a job for 2 months almost.  He went from working as an Electronic technician to being called in to Wal-Mart interview to be a cart pusher.  Not to mention it is only temporary work.  I've started putting in applications too.  Sure we have his retirement but that is only 1400 for an entire month.  Add $55,000 in debt to that and it equals bankrupcy.

I think what hit hard was today is my Aunt's 50th Birthday.  She is having her dinner at Cracker Barrel which is one of her favorite restruants.  We can't go because we literally have $20 to our name.  My parents are going because my dad got paid.  What makes it upsetting for me is we have bought $1000 in groceries, paid the phone bill and paid the utilites.  That isn't including toilet paper, washing power, dish soap, pull-ups, diapers, etc.  We are broke and they are going to dinner.  Did I mention we are out of food to cook?

I don't know.  Maybe it is just my stress getting to me.  I just wish God could give me a break.