Cry or Angry

For starters, Arabella had her GI appt.  It has been ruled that she is lactose intolerate.  I was actually praised for the decisions I had been making for my daughter regarding her health.  I guess with her being my third, I do have alittle experience under my belt.

(Matthew had emergency appt with the looney doctor at 9am at the Naval Hospital as well)

In the next breath, my husband said, "We need to talk."  He never says that unless it is serious.  It couldn't wait so I asked.  Apparently, Matthew told the doctor that his father beat him and left bruises.  There is not a single bruise on that boy and if there is he did it himself especially after his 'clawing himself episode' because his daddy told him he couldn't go to his friends.  They are filing a report about it and the doctor said that nothing would prolly come of it because they are getting therapy.  The thing is when we lived in Alabama my son snuck out of the house while I was doing dishes.  My daughter was 6 months old at the time and I was 13 weeks pregnant with Bella.  It ended with me calling 9-1-1 and a very sweet man, who I say was his Aiden's guardian angel, picked him up on the side of the road and took him to the police station.  Its emotional even thinking about it again.  But CPS was called.  Interviews were done and inspection of our home was done.  It was found to be accidental and we had complied with adding new locks to our doors. We are on the books with CPS for 5 years.  I have nothing to hide but I don't want them coming to my home because of Matthew and his lies.  So I let Tony know, while standing in front of Matthew, that he could go backup stairs and tell that looney doctor if this crap is going to CPS, I will drain the bank account and me and my babies will leave without anyone know where I'm going.

I am seek of his drama affecting me and my kids.  If the truth was to be known, I want Matthew to leave my home.  I don't want him here anymore.  I know my mother tells me that when I married my husband, I accepted his son; I did not sign up to be put through hell.  Do I cry or just be angry?  The bad thing with me though, it takes me a LONG time to forgive and NEVER do I forget.  Things will never be the same.