About Me

My photo
I'm a 27 year old mother to 3 small children and 1 teenage step-son. I'm a daughter and a sister. I love to laugh. I'm hated. I'm complex. I'm insane. I'm a bitch. I'm a lover. I am who I am.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Relapse

I have entered into another relapse.  It is taking everything I have just to focus and take care of my daughters.  I can't stop going to bathroom and I'm puking.  I've lost 10lbs in 2 days.  I feel like my throat is on fire because of the acid.  I can't eat anything because anything I eat, 30min to an hour later, it comes back up.  I took my Humira on Monday and no changes.  I can't be sick.  I have 4 kids and a husband that depend on me.  Tony doesn't have any days left that he can take off or else he would.  I think I am gonna have to go to the ER.  Moments like this is when I ask my self why me?  Moments like this is when I give myself pity.  Moments like these is when I want to give up.  Moments like this is when God picks me up and carries me through.
Posted by at

9 comments:

  1. http://barb's blogspot.comJune 16, 2010 at 6:39 PM

    Hi Tisha,sorry to hear that you are sick. Believe me I know how you feel. MY condition affects me somewhat like that except for the vomiting.Some times I same thing why me.It's really hard when you can't eat certain types of food.It's getting to the point that sometimes I just don't want to eat anything.Tusha hang in there don't give up,God will see you that you get through this.Get well and take care of yourself.

    ReplyDelete
  2. http://barb's blogspot.comJune 16, 2010 at 6:48 PM

    This comment has been removed by the author.

    ReplyDelete
  3. domienikeJune 17, 2010 at 12:25 PM

    Hello Tisha,

    I'm sorry that you're feeling ill around the end of the semester. I feel ill as well because when it comes to the ninth unit I get nervous because most of the points comes from this unit. Due to fact that I always lack points when it comes to my final essays, I just constantly tell myself I'll do fine. My advice and wishes to you are I hope you get well soon and wish you good luck on your final!

    ReplyDelete
  4. NICKOLAJune 17, 2010 at 5:32 PM

    Tisha,

    I know exactly how you feel. I hope you feel better

    Nichole:-)

    ReplyDelete
  5. malindagriffinJune 18, 2010 at 9:47 AM

    Hello Tisha,
    I am so sorry to hear that you are sick, I will be praying for you and keep the faith don't give up and let the devil win. God is all mighty and he won't leave your side even when you think that he is gone he is right there. Be strong and hang in there.

    ReplyDelete
  6. Living In FloridaJune 22, 2010 at 8:47 PM

    This comment has been removed by the author.

    ReplyDelete
  7. Living In FloridaJune 22, 2010 at 8:49 PM

    Hello Tisha,
    My thought and prayers are with you. So sorry to know that it is the last week of the semester and you are ill. Try not to pity yourself, stay strong, focus and allow God to intervene. I wish you and your family all the best and good luck!

    ReplyDelete
  8. MariluJune 22, 2010 at 10:05 PM

    Hey Tisha! Be strong! I am so sorry to hear this but I give all my blessings to you so you can get well!

    ReplyDelete
  9. Tisha's Bloggity BlogJune 28, 2010 at 6:11 PM

    Thank you everyone!

    I really appreciate all the prayers and good wishes to get well. I'm still struggling. I'm doin the best to hang in there and keep telling myself "this too shall pass". I found a wonderful quote today and I think I will make this my life motto:

    "I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much." ~~ Mother Teresa

    ReplyDelete

Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom)